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as i was driving home this evening, i got reminded of this scene i wrote a long time ago about driving and crying. anyway. once upon a time i tried to write a tv show about plain-clothes people with super-powers who would begrudgingly save the day and tried to balance that with, you know, actually working and having careers. so i wrote one episode where the main character, ben lucas, was coping with the death of his long-time love (yet they had broken up five years earlier), tim. there would be no dialogue in the episode because everything that needed to be said would be done in the songs that were playing during the scene (yeah, it sounds a bit corny, but it worked when i visualized it). so i had found the perfect song for each scene, except for the last one where ben leaves tim's funeral and starts crying while driving his car. i could never get the song right. at one point, i wanted "i get weak" by belinda carlisle, but thought it was way too gay. then i wanted "how am i different" by aimee mann. then "driving sideways" by aimee mann. then "you do" by aimee mann. then "the other end of the telescope" by til tuesday. then "humpty dumpty" by aimee mann. (can you tell i think aimee mann songs are incredibly beautiful and depressing?) anyway. i never did figure out that one scene. oh well. story of my life.