depressed

so, i know i would try to not use this blog as an emotional post (that's what myspace is for), but i just have to today.

so i went to the blanton opening last night, with mixed results. when i got there with leanne and mark, we were kind of astonished to find that the line to get into the museum went all the way around the museum. then we ran into lyman, and he got us into the museum (that was when it helps to know someone "in the band", heh.). anyway. it was nice to catch up with lyman, who i hadn't seen in months (congrats on the job, btw), and then leanne, mark, and i went to explore the museum. i was surprised to see how much i remembered about hellenic and greek sculpture (which was my specialty when i was an art history major), but then i got a little depressed when i ran into larry. i made the mistake of asking him who was back for the special, and he said jennifer, and after that, i don't really remember anythign he said.

i mean, i'm going through a breakup right now. is it bad that i'm feeling worse about hearing about jennifer (who kinda just blow me off aroudn this same time last year without any notice) than i am about the break up of a guy i was romantically involved with? i mean, i feel terrible that i'm thinking more about how hurt i was when jennifer blew me off then how i feel right now with the dissolution of darien and myself. and maybe i'm directing some of those feeling towards jennifer towards my not-so-good feelings towards dar right now.

gah. i don't know. i'm so confused.

the blanton was really awesome, though.