it's me, right

sorry, i never meant for this to be a very "diary" blog, and it seems like that's what it's been turning into. i just have no other outlet.

i got really depressed at work today. on monday, i edited this revised copy we got from a new client. i ripped it apart. on tuesday, we got more revised copy back, where everything i changed wasn't acknowledged, and told to just match the revised client copy with what was already in layout. then, today, i see that what i was told to just review to make sure it matched what the client wanted was edited by someone (whether it was my boss-boss or the account director, i don't know), but it made me feel shitty, because i have no idea what the fuck is going on with this client. i have no idea what's expected of me. but when i'm told to not edit and then see what i reviewed was edited, it makes me feel like i missed something. like someone is saying i'm not doing my job. and i have no idea what that is.

i don't know. maybe i just take my job too seriously. maybe i'm still trying to deal with my break up months ago. maybe this is just my usual manic depressive bullshit. i don't know. i just feel stupid. but that's not new. blah.