i left work a little early today because i wanted to do something nice for a friend. so i went to the h-e-b closest to work to buy her something i thought she'd appreciate. i grabbed the items, was halfway to the register, then thought, "no, giving her this would be kinda creepy." so i put them back.
when i got home, i made a couple of checks for bills, gathered 78 cents, and headed to the post office to buy two stamps and mail them off. i get to the post office. the vending machine is sold out of single stamps. so i head to the automated machine that only takes cards. i try to buy two stamps, but it now says that the minimum purchase is a dollar, even though not but two weeks i went and bought one stamp from said automated machine and was allowed to make the 39-cent purchase. so i stormed out, angry, and feeling stupid because monday i made a comment on a consumerist post about this topic.
after this i went to the h-e-b by my place to again try to purchase something for my friend. i settled on just getting her one thing, thinking that would be less creepy. but i kept on grabbing it and putting it back because, well, i don't have such a good track record with tokens of kindness. usually when i do something nice for someone (especially someone i'm still neo-friends with), it usually gets taken out of context. hence the caring = creepy. there was one guy i was friends with at swt, i saw something cheesey i thought he'd like, i bought it for him, and he freaked out, thinking i was trying to make him gay. back in '02, i took the guy i was dating to the weezer concert i was going to cover for the paper. i thought it was a good idea because we'd been dating for about two months, and we both liked weezer. nope. he took it as me getting "too serious" and broke up with me ... after the concert, though. (asshole.)
so instead of doing something nice for someone because i want to show them i care and that i appreciate their friendship, i do nothing. because i'm afraid of how it'll be construed. and now i drink, waiting for scrubs to come on.
sometimes i'm too introspective for my own good. and i come off as either creepy or an uncaring ass.
gah.
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yeah, i've given a gift several times with mixed results leaning toward the scary. "it's the thought that counts" is nonsense. gift giving in nervewracking. i think i worry more about disappointing them that scaring them off though. i think that if the person is a good friend then they won't be scared. besides, it's the holiday season and people love getting expected and unexpected gifts.
wow...tough crowd. give them socks. you can't go wrong with socks. it says, hey, I care about your feet being cold this winter.
no?
hehehe
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