huh?

so i started my new contract job today. and i'm a little depressed.

i know it's just started, and i've only been here for an hour and a half, but ...

my e-mail account hasn't been set up because it has to be set up through corporate, and apparently, well, yeah.

the phone extension i'm supposed to be using is maybe being used by another contractor, but no one is sure.

i'm typing this from a mac. i haven't used a mac in maybe four years. and i've completely forgotten how to use one. why the fuck doesn't ctrl t do anything? why do i have to use the apple key? where's the scroll buttom on my mouse? waaaaa!

and i'm worried about downtime. since my invoice has to be approved or it goes to corporate (or something like that), i can't have too much downtime. and that freaks me out. because, well, like i've done no actual work today. the invoice that i have to use is confusing. no one knows if i have to do my invoice and company timesheets. and i'm only supposed to work 20 hours a week. but if there's nothing for me to do, i'm gonna leave because i can't have too much downtime. but that means less than 20 hours a week. and i think i almost feel a panic attack coming on.

my supervisor asked me if i preferred working on a pc or mac. (the IT guy had already asked me the same question.) i said i'm more familiar with a pc and haven't used a mac in years, but i'll use whatever they give me because i'm just a contractor and i don't want to be a bother. and that somehow made me more depressed.

i really need a cigarette.