i just gave up company-sponsored beer and hot dogs from dog almighty at work

reasons why:
1. depressed
2. angry that i've done about 15 minutes of work all day
3. angry that i'm still owed more than $500 from my former place of employment
4. angry that for number 3, i've had to submit the same invoice FOUR FUCKING TIMES
5. the fact that, while i'm feeling better, the white patch in my throat doesn't seem to be making any progress going away
6. the fact that things are going well for mostly everyone i know and i can't find a steady job
7. i crave human interaction, yet am direly afraid of it
8. lonely (which is pretty much the same as number 7, but i want to list it separately)
9. i wish deep space nine were still on the air
10. i have no number 10, i just wanted to have 10 bullets.