i got nothing

i had what felt like a pity interview today for a part-time admin. asst. job. is it just me, or does a pity interview rank way below pity sex? i think it does. the interview didn't go really well, at least now in my head. i was really nervous and rambled on trying to sell how my ad agency and newspaper experience translates into an admin. job. the interview lasted less than 10 minutes, the interviewer said that if they had interest in me, they'd call me back within a week for a secondary interview. and now, i see the ad for the job reposted on craigslist. so yeah, i have a feeling i'm not getting a secondary interview.

my tv is cold. i haven't turned it on since i got my cable cancelled. so i've been kinda glued to my computer more so than before, downloading my abc soaps daily (since you can view everything else on abc.com except for their soaps) and trying to find an online station that i don't mind listening to. so far, i've been defaulting to KUT.

i keep wanting to pick up one of my myriad books to read, but my attention span has gone to shit with my nerves of late. i've been having daily panic attacks, i haven't been sleeping well (if at all), and blah blah blah. i feel like all i do lately is whine about how i don't have a job and money is running out and how screwed i am in general. then again, this blog is my only outlet since i've basically distanced myself from my friends because, well, all i can talk about is how shitty i am right now between my random sobbing and panic attacks. like i said, blah.

in other new, the new season of torchwood started last week. and, well, who needs slash when we have the BBC? mmm...jack harkness and spike. me-ow. although, i could've done without blur playing.

ok, back to job hunting. sigh.