meh

so i had a shitty new year's. passed out early. woke up. puked. went back to sleep. i spent most of the day in bed, moping, because i may have ruined the best thing to ever happen to me. so, yeah, i've been kind of an emotional idiot today, like that's much of a difference. anyway. so i'm drunk again, now, hoping to get a sign that things aren't as bad as i think they are. but that's never how it works out. oh well.