i had a panic attack at work today. just a small-ish one. i haven't had a panic attack at work since may when we had this really stressful project going on.what brought it on was lunch. almost my entire department went out for the boss-boss's birthday. and we went somewhere that was really loud. and really crowded. which i don't do so well in when i can't drink or smoke. when lunch was over, i bolted for my car and chain smoked all the way back to work, where i proceeded to chain smoke more.
it really started to kick in when i had to start working again. i was still stressed from the lunch, and i was going over something that stressed me out more (not for me, but for the designer, because i try to shield them from snarky remarks from the client side of things) and then got handed some client edits and i guess my freak out got out of control and i started trembling. hyperventilate a little. hot flashes. racing heart. then the dizziness.
anyway. i really should try to get back on xanax.
ok, back to new comic book day.
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