And you run in the fight of cars as you dreamed always!

in the next half-hour, my saturday night will begin. and i'm a little apprehensive. don't know why. ok, that's a lie. it's the me-ness. well, the just-me-ness. there's three events i'm attending tonight, the first being the cd release party for a band a couple of people i know are in, followed by my company's holiday party, followed by seeing a band that a couple of other people i know are in.

maybe it's the fact that at this time last year i was in a relationship. sure, we fought a lot and all, but it was the first holiday time that i was actually with someone. and i suppose the whole single thing is getting to me more now because of that. and maybe because i've come to realize more and more that i am a barnacle.

what i'm probably the most apprehensive about is the company party. i'm in a better place there than i was last year, when i pretty much hated everyone and was actively searching for a new job every day. now i actually get along with a lot of people and consider a couple of them friends (although velouria won't be there because she's out of town again). but i know i'm going to run into a lot of couples. almost everyone i know at work is married, engaged, or in a relationship. which means i'll be meeting a lot of significant others tonight. and, i don't know, i guess it's depressing. because here i am, single again, without even a friend to take to the party.

of course, i'm over-thinking this and i should just go with the flow and try and have a good time and try to be all lloyd dobler-esque, and maybe i will be after a couple of drinks. who knows.

anyway. here's a rockin' julieta venegas song to start off the night. enjoy.