more hate

i could sum up how i feel right now in two words, but i've had too many short posts lately.

so, uh, work sucks. i haven't been working much this week, and have left by 4 every day since tuesday.

yesterday, i had to explain to an AE why i didn't respond to an e-mail and didn't answer my phone. (i didn't respond to the e-mail because i didn't know i had it. i only check my work e-mail when i first get to work because i don't get any work-related e-mails. the only e-mails i get are about who isn't at work that day. anything related to, you know, actual work, i never get those e-mails. so i've gotten into the habit of just checking my work e-mail, deleting the e-mails, and closing entourage when i'm done. it takes all of 30 seconds, and then i have nothing else to do. i didn't answer the phone because, well, the people that work around me are unusually loud, and i got tired of listening to other people's conversations, so i just always have my headphones on and listen to music. also, i had no idea people knew my phone extension, because even i don't know it.)

today, when i asked my "boss" if i could leave at 4 because there was nothing to do, he seemed a little peeved. of course, i could be reading him wrong because, well, i don't know him well, he's intimidating, and he always seems upset. but, you know, he's the one that keeps reminding me that i can't have too much downtime because if i have too much downtime, corporate might decide my services are no longer needed. and i guess i got complacent because these past two weeks, i've hardly had any downtime. and then it was a total 180 this week. i've had almost nothing to do.

oh yeah, also, i find out i don't have much to do because half of the AEs have one of the writers proof stuff before i get in. and that pisses me off. because it's all stuff that isn't hot/time sensitive/priority. and it's stuff that could just wait for me when i get in at 1. but nooooo. fuck that.

yup.