been talking to this guy online for a little over a month now. have a crush on him. he's moving from austin back to portland on tuesday. we've never met. yet, i feel like crap because he's moving. and stupid because i attached these feelings to a guy i've never met and never had a chance with. which is all too familiar.
it brings back all my old inadequacies. not that they're that old. but it makes me feel ultra-stupider than usual. that and he's moving back and picking back up with his ex. and most of my friends are being super-successful and fruitful and such. and i'm not.
jealousy. in more ways than one. there's all these opportunities and experiences and such opening up for everyone but me.
maybe it's karma. maybe it's just me. maybe i should just stop complaining about insignificant crap like this.
so. stupid.
solamente yo
- mando
- Austin, Texas, United States
- um ... not much to say. i'm a copy editor. i like the words "nifty" and "egads." i tend to alienate people with my vast knowledge of obscure and useless trivia. i inhale gore vidal and comic books. the chicago manual is my bible. i'm a vegetarian. i enjoy drinking and the meat purveyors (and sometimes drinking with jo walston). i like to ramble. tada?
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