copy cat

apparently, the weather change didn't agree with me. i spent most of last week suffering through sinus crap or a cold (i'm leaning on sinus crap, since i was congesty and got hella sinus headaches, but that's about it) and while that has mostly subsided, i now have this bronchitisy cough. bah.

anyway. recently, i've found myself starting and stopping working on posts. maybe i picked it up from steiger. i'm sure i'll finish those other posts eventually, but for now, they're in post limbo.

i also seem to have picked something up from that girl. mainly, a couple of weeks ago, i posted an ad on craigslist in the strictly platonic section seeking gay male friends with similar interests (aka comic books, live music, lots of tv, not into the gay bars, comic books). the results have been ... less than stellar. after i got through the responses from guys that were looking to date (which, really, i had to stop myself from responding to them and saying "wow, you must be mildly retarded, because my ad was posted under strictly platonic, and strictly said that i was looking for friends and not a date. or sex. please move along, and get a lobotomy if you haven't gotten one already."), there were a couple of good responses.

one of the responses sounded like a really cool guy. we read a lot of the same comics, liked a lot of the same shows, loved drinking lonestar, liked sci-fi, also a voracious reader, slightly misanthropic, etc. he sounded like he could be a great friend. so i responded to him, and i never heard back. bah.

next guy seems ok. he likes similar movies as i do, doesn't read comic books, reads slowly, but it currently reading one of the hitchhiker's guide books. and not really into going to shows. we've been chatting online, and he seems nice enough. but ... don't know if he's hang out worthy. i may have to give him the heave ho.

yet another guy, well, he was deceptive. he replied, said he liked what i liked. so we e-mailed back and forth a couple of times, and i got suspicious when i didn't get some of my references to books he allegedly had read. then he asked me out on a date. replied with a thanks, but no thanks.

there was this other guy who, again, said he liked the same things i did. but he wanted to meet in person right away, and got a little mad that i wanted to IM. so we chatted a couple of times, and they were ... awkward, to say the least. turns out he's really into the gay bars, which is a no-no. and the subject always ended up turning to sex, or more how guys were always wanting to have sex with him and blah blah blah. i didn't really care much for it. plus, i'm kinda prudish when it comes to talking about sex with friends. maybe it's because my friends are straight. ok, it's because i don't want to hear my friends talk about sex and then getting the mental image. gah. so, yeah, i told this guy to kindly fuck off.

lastly, and most recently, i got a response from a guy that sounds pretty friend-worthy, and we read a lot of the same comics and watch a lot of the same tv and so on. but ... he has a boyfriend that he's been with for seven years or something like that, and he talks in "we" and it kinda creeps me out. what if this guy is also being deceptive and is looking for a third for him and his bf. or maybe i'm just really paranoid.

i don't know. maybe this looking for friends thing was a mistake. especially since i feel like i'm trying to force it. sure, i posted the ad, but it seems like maybe that's not how friends should be made. bah.

making friends is hard.