two disappointments down, none to go

so that full-time permanent position i interviewed for two wednesdays ago at the state agency i temped for a couple years back? um, as i predicted, i didn't get it. i feel almost numb about it. whatever.

and now, now, the ad agency i used to work for that was headhunting me is getting anxious. hr called me today and is kinda putting the pressure on me to make a decision. i'm supposed to talk to them again on monday, and i just don't know what i'm going to say. oh, i know, a lot of outrageous requests that they won't be able to meet.

at this point, i'd rather just work my delivery job and find another part-time job and work those two until i find a job somewhere that i really want to work at. yeah. i'm expecting that to happen ... never. never sounds right. that job is right there next to love of my life. yup. never.

great, now i have "never" by heart in my mind. if i didn't go into work in 30 minutes, i'd so start getting drunk right now.

gah.