Sunday, October 05, 2008

pre-emptive holiday depression

since it's been that kind of weekend, i've already started thinking ahead to the impending 2008 holiday season. this was brought up at work in the last week or so, because we usually get the last week or second to last week of the year off. it's usually the second to last, but this year, it's the last, which has pissed some people off who were planning on going home the week of x-mas, even though fucking x-mas is a fucking thursday this year, and we're getting to not work from 12/24 to 1/2. we don't have to fucking go back to work until 1/5/09!

but oh no. people are mad. oh, my husband has the week of x-mas off. oh, i was planning on going home to ohio for x-mas, now i have to miss it for the first time.

boo-fucking-hoo.

i said, and i meant it quite seriously, "why can't everyone hate their family as much as i do?"

to which, i got a lot of "awww".

which was not the response i was hoping for.

which i guess is what has gotten me more so in this mood.

i don't like my family. i've avoided going home for any sort of holiday or the past four years. and i'd like to keep it that way. but when people started to feel pity for me, it made me feel a little sad. let's recant last year's holidays. i had pizza and beer for thanksgiving all by myself. for x-mas, i went to beerland and drank by myself.

um, yeah. i'm not a religious or holiday-ish guy, but looking back on that, and considering i've been rather self-loathy this whole weekend, wow, sad.

and that's all i got.

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