over it

headline covers many topics. let's begin.

1) myspace. seriously. my profile will be deleted by end of week.

2) facebook, and fearing it. friends i haven't spoken to in forever are on there, and seem to only be on there. so i'll finally make use of the profile i started there a while back when crystal (or ryan, i forget) sent me an invite to join. and i will be on facebook. grudgingly. unless i'm drunk; then it will be drunkenly and more bearable.

3) twitter. i'll still never twitter. if only because of the verb "tweet". yeah.

4) my non-relationship. straight guy i mentioned many, many posts ago that i liked? well, long story short ... um, not really a good way to cliff notes it. anyway. stopped liking him. or so i thought. feelings came back. hard. then last month or so, we've been weird when we're alone. fine at work. but when it's just he and i ... it's like we're a divorced couple trying to make small talk amidst all the awkward non-flirting. and fact of the matter is, we've been trying to be friends. but maybe trying too hard to where we're not even trying. then he did some things that really pissed me off, and, well, done trying to be friends. i'm done. because you know what? i don't want to be friends with him. i want something more, and that's not ever going to happen. so i need to suck it up, cut my losses, and live with just being co-workers. and yeah, it's hard, because i still have the impulse to want to talk to him all the time. but that's unhealthy, and i'm already unhealthy enough in enough other places of my life. i just can't do it any more and be sane. not that i'm sane.

5) i don't have a number five. but i like odd numbers.